Monday, March 12, 2012

Easy As Pie

Okay, things aren't always easy as pie but I did make an Apple Pie this weekend and it turned out amazing!

Apple Pie with Classic Crust
The women in my family can bake and as you know I have been baking since I could reach the counter on a chair.  I love baking because to me it's a connection with my family.  I love using the old rolling pin that has been passed down for generations and feeling the wonderful bake goods it has produced.  Family just means so much more to me now than ever before.

Anyway, I didn't realize it until my dad said something but Sunday was 4 months for my Mom's passing.  It still hurts but the pain is duller than before. Nothing is like before and I am now living a new version of normal but holiday's are hard and I am so not looking forward to Mother's Day.

It really is the little things that affect me the most.  I finished something that I was knitting (I will show you later in the week) and I just wanted to call my mom and tell her about it.  I see something funny and want to share it.  I am scared and concerned about something and want her reassurance that everything will be okay.

As Easter gets closer, I look at the house and think I need to decorate but worry that I won't find the time.  I don't know how she did it and wonder if she knew how much I appreciated her.  As I got older, the teenage angst and frustrations went away and the love was really apparent.  I miss her so much and everything still seems so surreal but a new normal is starting to be established.  I just need to keep taking one day at a time, which is easy as pie, right?

<3 Heather

4 comments:

  1. (((((Hugs)))) I am absolutely certain your Mom would be so very proud of you Heather. My Grandmother was 19 years old when she lost her Mother, she had an eleven year old brother and a two year old sister to look after, cook, clean, laundry etc. When she was well into her eighties, she had a little cry to me and said how much she missed her Mother. This made me appreciate these close maternal, family bonds are eternal. My grandmother passed 14 years ago and I truly miss her everyday. I try to be all the things I admired in her. Baking, crafts, thriftiness and strength of character. xxx

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    1. Thanks for saying that. Some days are just so much harder than others.

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  2. I cannot even begin to imagine how you must feel. Some memories/experiences like that are simply always bittersweet. I'm sure that she would have been super proud of you for making such an amazing pie (among other things). Please take care.

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    1. I appreciate your kind words. Thank you

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