I can't though it does make me want to curl under the covers and close my eyes and listen for the rest of the morning and make me late for work. As I walk into work most days in May, I am just struck by the beauty of it all. The green of the trees and the blue sky. The bold primary colors that make up our world. It just makes me smile.
|Lilacs from the bush in the back yard of My Dad's house.|
I guess what I am trying to say is that I content and happy. Today is Mother's Day and it isn't as hard as last year. I still miss my mom everyday but I know that I am blessed with great people in my life that have been filling the holes losing my mother has created.
Carol is a friend of the family from church and while she has a family of her own, she took us all under her wing. She and mom were partners in crime when it came to the baskets at the church festival and other things mom wrangled them into. I know that my mom's passing really affected her but I think taking us in as her own helped all of us. I would call Carol when I just needed someone to cry too and didn't want to upset my dad.
Aunt Becky and Francy
Aunt Becky was my mom's best friend from childhood. She is a nurse and a wonderful human being. Francy is her older sister and together they have been such a huge part of my life. They watched me when I was a cubby baby when my grandfather passed away. They always get the most amazing things from birthdays and christmas (even though they are Jewish) and always took to on great adventures. I have fond memories of antiqueing and going to yarn sales to find cool new things for their home. Aunt Francy spanned my love of science fiction. Seriously I was watching Mystery Science Theater 3000 when I was like 6. They are a super special part of my life and I don't know what I would do without them.
Jenn, Samie, Sarah, Lucy and Becky
Really my friends are wonderful. While not mothers, they were more than capable of filling the void of friendship that I lost with my mom. I told my mom pretty much everything. She was my sounding board when I needed advise or when I needed advise to give my friends. In turn, my friends are the glue that keep me together sometimes. Thinking about what they mean to me makes me tear up but that's just how it is.
All of you who read the blog, are friends with me on Ravelry and have come into my life in this past year and a half.
I wanted to take a minute to thank you as well. You have no idea what your kind words and comments have meant. I have taken your advise about how to remember my mom. I started periodically journaling things that are going on in letters to my mom. I have taken comfort in your thoughts and prayers for me. I wish there was a better way to say this but thank you. If I could sky write it or post it on a billboard I would but I wanted you to know how much it all means to me.
Honestly, there are so many people who have been there for me who helped to fill those gaps and to you I say Thank you.