2012 - September Recap

Fall seems to finally be here.  The weather is crisp and cool and the leaves are beginning to change.  I know that 30 days have past but I cannot fathom where September went?  Can you?  I know what I did but it was hectic and mellow at the same time.  Lots of time for working on Knitting and Crochet but it was more scattered than in previous months.

I love that I got a good jump on my white centered grannies and that I started on the infinity cowl that has been sitting in my stash for months.  Now to start the next tournament of Nerd Wars and get some holiday knitting done.

I feel kinda bad because I broke up with the boy this month.  He kept asking what he could do to fix things but there was nothing to fix it just wasn't there.  I feel bad but in the long run it was and still is the right decision.

Well onto my mosaic.  I love these because it really allows me to review the month and get an idea of where the time went.

<3 Heather

2012 - August Recap

Well hello again, I had the best of intentions to get this done on Friday but the holiday weekend swept me away and I didn't get anything bloggy accomplished.  I know you are all a forgiving sort so here is my recap post for August.

I am honestly amazed that this time has flown by.  I feel like it was just yesterday that I was writing the July Recap post.  So much has happened and at the same time nothing much at all.  The boy and I are still dating.  I don't want to put more titles on it than that but it is something special.  I had some family drama occur and school started.

In other news, the month was overall relaxing and I had awesome stuff happening on the weekend including becoming a human rainbow.

<3 Heather

Seasons of Change

Every year when the weather cools down and the mornings and evenings are crisp and cool I know fall is in the air.  I love love love this time of year, it truely is one of the best things about living in the northeastern part of the country.  The impending seasons bring to mind colorful leaves, apple pies, pumpkin cookies, Oktoberfest and back to school.

Apple pie made earlier this month

Now my friends generally know that I love back to school stuff, I even put school supplies on layaway one year.  Honestly, crayons, pens, pencils, paper and markers were toys in my house so what better time to stock up when ailses of the mega marts are full of the wonderfull products.  Seriously I drool.

Anyway, as I price shop my text book for my next Grad class I am whistful for college and being a freshman again.  I don't think that I was misty-eyed or homesick to much because I was just excited. Excited about my future and everything the world had in store for me.  I was a firm believer that the world was my oyster and I was going to relish in everything it had to offer.

Looking back now, I miss the selfishness of being on my own for the first time and basking in my first taste of adult hood.  I miss my dorm room with the tye-dye comforter and the bright red sheets.  I miss my colorful posters and lights strung around the room.  I miss my roommates and the goofy things we got up too.  I just miss that feeling of carefree and opportunity while dipping a toe into adulthood with training wheels attached.

My side of the Dorm Room

I admit I am so lucky.  I chose a major which I loved and it lead me to a career that I enjoy and am proud but before that started I had to leave home for school.  Granted school was about 20 minutes away but I was living on campus and away from home.

Mom was so amazing when I went off to college.  After we unloaded my things and I got set up, my mom and my cousin (Dad started a new job and couldn't get off work) had to head home and instead of going back to my dorm for a final goodbye.  My mom just gave me a hug around my box of books and said,  "We have head home so were are going to part here."  I remember saying, "You mean you aren't going to come up with me?"  She shook her head and gave me a big hug (Amy did too) a I watched them both walk to the cross walk, cross the street and go to the parking garage.

I felt as if I was moving in slow motion and the colors and sounds were just whipping around me as I focused on them leaving.  I am surprised now that I didn't cry, instead I shurgged and walked into the dorm building and made my way to my room.

I realize now that this was probably one of the hardest things my mom has done.  She let me go.  She let me grow and change into an adult that is self sufficient and independent.  I think that was a source of comfort for her in the end.

So as I snuggle under my blankets before starting my day or breathe in the crisp air, I remember the great things that happened in college but understand it allowed me to be who I am today.  I know Mom is proud and laughs each time I get another package of highlighters.

2012 - July Recap

I reread my recap post from June and laughed at the following statement.

"It has been so hot but I am trying to enjoy the sunshine instead of whining about the heat."

Really the weather had not even begun to get hot last month. I spent a good chunk of the month of July sleeping on my couch under the air conditioner. I did get a new matress and box spring so I may actually sleep in my room. Time will tell.

I have been out and about with the boy* but I did manage to get a bunch of stuff done and was able to post some great Finished Objects.

You got to see the finished version of the LEGO blanket, the Green Lantern Square, and a single wristlet.  The thing that makes me happiest is the progress on the Hogwarts Scarf.  Next month it will get finished.

 <3 Heather

* The Boy is my code name for the guy I am currently dating.  He is super sweet so be kind.  :)

2012 - June Recap

Between my birthday and life, June was a busy month. It has been so hot but I am trying to enjoy the sunshine instead of whining about the heat.

I got a bunch of stuff done and was able to post some great Finished Objects.  

With the Aquaman square done and the LEGO blanket done, I was able to plan for the next projects and get restarted on some WIPs.

Plus who doesn't love Rainbows!

<3 Heather

Side Tracked

As the early morning light hit my eyes this morning, I took a moment to realize that summer is finally here.  The time of year so many look forward too.  The warm weather and barbecues, no school and vacations.  

As I convinced myself that it was time to get up, I feel anxiety that the time is just slipping past me in a never ending carousel ride.  I feel like it was just yesterday that I waxed poetically about spring peaking out through the dirges of winter.  

Spring Tulips

The green of the foliage has since changed from the promise of yellow, through the life affirming green into the stressful brown.  The heat of summer is upon us finally.  Do I pay attention to the song birds or am I more concerned with the hum of the air conditioning kicking in?

I admit that my favorite seasons are spring and fall.  The sunshine is a welcome accompaniment and change from the grey skies of winter and the scorching heat of summer.  I long for the colors that are only visible in spring and fall.  But in this heat of summer, I am trying to find the silver lining through it all.  We long for this time in the dead of winter and yet it's easy think toward the cooler weather in our future.  

Instead I try to find relief and in turn realize that it's not so bad.  This week even I realized that if there is a breeze no matter how hot, the heat isn't so bad.  And with the breeze there is a longing for blue waters and sand between my toes.

Miami Beach - May 2007

How is it that when we are on vacation, we can endure the heat?  We long for it and bask in the scorching sun and run into the blue waters?  Maybe it's the change in scenery, maybe it's a chance to escape our lives back home for a short time, maybe it's just vacation and you shouldn't question it.

I don't think I will get to see the beach this summer but I am having cravings for the humid sea air and the call of gulls.  I loved sleeping to the sounds of the ocean and waking up early to watch the sunrise with my mom on the porch.

But perhaps that is my dilemma, I miss my mother everyday.  Some days, it's a fond memory.  Other days it's an overwhelming desire to talk to her and the subsequent frustration and tears that I can no longer hear the sound of her voice.  Or maybe it's days like today where I stop to reflect and wonder how I made it almost 8 months without her.  Where has the time really gone?

I remember after she died that the days and weeks seemed endless.  Now the days have once again sped up to light speed.  I truly have no clue where May went and now that my birthday has come and gone, what happened to June?  Before I know it, will fall be upon me?  Will I be excited about school supplies and going back to grad school?  

Everything changes.  If I didn't get it before, I definitely get it now.  I work hard everyday to not wish the time away.  To cherish the sunrise and sunset and make the most of each day.  Because if I don't the days will just pass by me and who would want that to happen.

Iguazu Falls, Brazil - May, 2007

<3 Heather